Narrow is the Way

Someone just texted and asked me in these exact words, “Ya got any tips for money magic?”

“Get a job?” is what I want to say but probably won't. I will probably say something much more diplomatic but maybe not as useful, pragmatic and wise as simply saying, “Get a job.” But I get it; so many new age influencers say that money falls from the sky, and maybe sometimes it does, but does that mean people who work are saps? I mean, someone had to make the iPhone you’re using to tell people how to live.

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Controversial Contemplations on Necessity

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Do people need astrology readings? Yes.

Do people need my insight? Yes.

Do people need to know how to read and write? Yes.

Wherever there is need.

Some people are in the business of desire, which is much easier than the business of need, but when I closed the shop last year, I closed the shop on the business of desire.

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Fortune and Comparison

I have been offhandedly toying with the notion of fortune lately, specifically as I reframe a gratitude practice that works for me. Arbitrarily listing off things I possess by some shallow worldview that, compared to such and such, I have it quite well, is no longer a useful practice as I deepen the soil I till. 

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Amanda Holstien
NEW Updates!

Greetings from my Home Office,

It’s been a bit of a whirlwind (shout out to the wind!) since closing the shop last month. Most of my November was clearing out, giving away, or storing items - appropriate for the Harvest Season. 

On Monday I dropped off my key to the shop and got a text from a friend asking if I had any selenite for sale. 

Yesterday was when the emotions hit me. While I am glad I closed the shop, I was anticipating some sort of emotional processing to come up, and yesterday was that day. The emotions and thoughts that arose yesterday catalyzed the first post on my new Substack page. 

Whilst and after closing the shop, I’ve been chewing on the question - “What’s next?” One of the answers is my new Substack page, where I will be posting my writings: poetry, pontifications and likely some magical tips. Check it out if you want to follow my philosophical musings on mental health and spiritual development. 

In the meantime, you’ll notice some changes to the website with limited products and services available. I’ve had to cancel some appointments that didn’t feel right and cancel some orders for products I no longer sell, but once the dust has settled, I know I’ll be grateful I took the risk to say no, set boundaries and live more authentically.

I love you so much, and I hope you are having a warm and peaceful holiday season.

Truly,

Amanda

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PoetryAmanda Holstien
Indifferent to Results

Whilst in my repeated contemplations of the Gita, I wonder how else I may meld its teachings into my soul.

On Monday, I was bent out of shape and trying to figure out why. In the afternoon, I turned back on the recording of this sacred text and was reminded by Lord Krishna, “You have a right to your actions, but never to your actions fruits.” Once again I had caused my own suffering through a desire and expectation!

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New Moon in Gemini

How many disappointments have I experienced simply by my own expectations or perceptions? Is there anything that is not from the mind?

When I think about suffering and world-wide matters, I wonder what is within my pay grade? How can I bring balance to my own life and home? Is my own “house” in order? This is a major theme of The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations - turning within, not as a means of navel gazing but as a means to peel away perceptions and simply remember Who I Am.

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Why I Quit Social Media

Last week I realized, while floating in my mother’s pool and listening to the audio book of Autobiography of a Yogi that I was giving away my most valuable gift: my perception. As an ever-aspiring mystic, yogi, magician, what-have-you, my perception, concentration and focus is of the utmost importance for Divine Realization. I tried to find balance for 5 years, but all I was doing was...

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The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations - VIP Presale

I wrote The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations between 2020-2022 after completing the Rite of Abramelin, which is a special initiation that commits one’s life to a magical path of service. During this Rite, I received what is called, Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, which is just as esoteric as it sounds. After completing the Rite, my life was turned upside down and the rug pulled out from under me. In this process, I wrote The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations.

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West Texas Winds

I recently did a tarot reading to inquire the intention of these particularly rough West Texas winds we’ve been experiencing over the past few months. Though the cotton blowing in my back door seems to have softened the landscape, what I found in the reading was particularly interesting: The winds were sweeping in to bring balance.

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PoetryAmanda Holstien
Consider the Lillies

  

When asked recently why Easter is my third favorite holiday and Christmas my fourth, I replied, “It’s the vernal freshness, the physical exemplification of renewal.”

We say the sun is reborn on the solstice, slowly stretching a few extra rays of light in the darkest of nights until we behold: blossoms.

I started to notice petite purple flowers beginning to bloom as I walked my new deaf puppy Trixie in February. After the Pisces new moon on March 10th, the white flowers were apparent and the yellow too, as if they’d been there all along just waiting for me to notice.

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Time, Surrender & the Divine

I’ve had more than a few experiences of time - in fact, it seems like I’ve had infinite experiences with time - many times on a daily basis.

I recently heard that our relationship with time is related to our relationship with the Divine - yes, that Divine. This also makes sense because Saturn, the Lord of Time, is the final planet we encounter on our journey back home to Pleroma, or what some might call Source. I prefer to say God.

I’ve also heard that our relationship with time is related to our relationship with prosperity and abundance - feeling like we don’t have enough time. Is it just a matter of prioritization?

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Week 1, Day 9: I am Enough

For those of you who listen to my podcast, A Thousand Serious Moves, you probably already know that my dog and good friend Tupes passed away last Saturday. It has been a rough week in more than one way, and I have been trying my hardest to take it easy. Of course I understand the irony of that statement: trying my hardest to take it easy.

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Quitting Cigarettes (Again)

I’ve never considered myself a “smoker” even though I’ve been smoking casually since I was 18. At first it started out as an oral fixation to keep me from eating when I had an eating disorder. Then, smoking became something to do when I went out drinking. Or if I’d travel to Europe, it only seemed culterally respectful to smoke. And when I did standup comedy, I didn’t want to sit through an entire open mic, and smoking with other comedians outside was a way of networking. Then, when I got clean, nicotine seemed like the only thing I could have, but when I’d smoke cigarettes, it’s like what I really wanted was to get high.

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