I wrote The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations between 2020-2022 after completing the Rite of Abramelin, which is a special initiation that commits one’s life to a magical path of service. During this Rite, I received what is called, Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, which is just as esoteric as it sounds. After completing the Rite, my life was turned upside down and the rug pulled out from under me. In this process, I wrote The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations.
Read MoreWhen asked recently why Easter is my third favorite holiday and Christmas my fourth, I replied, “It’s the vernal freshness, the physical exemplification of renewal.”
We say the sun is reborn on the solstice, slowly stretching a few extra rays of light in the darkest of nights until we behold: blossoms.
I started to notice petite purple flowers beginning to bloom as I walked my new deaf puppy Trixie in February. After the Pisces new moon on March 10th, the white flowers were apparent and the yellow too, as if they’d been there all along just waiting for me to notice.
Read Moreby: Amanda Holstien
in Marfa, TX
“The Mandrakes Give off a Fragrance”
For Leah to give away
a night with Jacob;
The mandrakes give off a fragrance
to produce hallucinations,
hallelujah,
a secret, poetic elixir,
which is why they call it occult.
How the Song of Solomon is
an alchemical text,
the plants and perfumes
speaking their language
to activate with lemon and verbena.
One time I drank this
substance
to forfeit the mind
and induce seduction,
for it is no longer I who live,
but Christ who dwells in me.
I’ve had more than a few experiences of time - in fact, it seems like I’ve had infinite experiences with time - many times on a daily basis.
I recently heard that our relationship with time is related to our relationship with the Divine - yes, that Divine. This also makes sense because Saturn, the Lord of Time, is the final planet we encounter on our journey back home to Pleroma, or what some might call Source. I prefer to say God.
I’ve also heard that our relationship with time is related to our relationship with prosperity and abundance - feeling like we don’t have enough time. Is it just a matter of prioritization?
Spiders can give great early warning signs, and though I did not see her on this particular afternoon, I do know there is a tarantula who lives in a hole outside the door to my Holy Guardian Angel’s altar. David Sleeper calls her Harrietta.
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